I'm launching a Patreon!!!

I been feeling RESTRICTED.

I have so much I want to say.
I have so much I want to share.
I have so much I want to stand for.

But I feel restricted.
I feel like I can't. 
Or let's be real...
I feel like IF I do, I'll be judged.

I'll be judged for being "too sensitive" (one of my favorite triggering phrases). 
I'll be judged for being too white, or too privileged. 
I'll be judged for making a big deal out of something small.
I'll be judged for being overly emotional. 
I'll be judged for not having my shit together as an emotional coach, or a yoga teacher, or a 30 year old. 
I'll say the wrong thing, and people won't like it. 
People will misunderstand me.
People will dislike me.
People will be hurt by my words, whether it's because they mistook it for something else, or because my truthful words are inherently hurtful. 
And really, the biggest one is that I am who I am in large part because of my experiences with YOU. My friends, my family. And I'm terrified that my truth from those experiences won't be accepted. It won't be okay for me to feel hurt, or for me to form an opinion, or for me to be mad at someone or something. 
Particularly because I'm a woman.
Particularly because I'm white.
Particularly because I'm an emotional coach who is helping people heal.
Particularly because I'm a yoga teacher who is supposed to be spiritually clean. 

Now, I'm clear that on one hand, ALL OF THIS IS IN MY HEAD, and that my fear is based on my own feelings of being looked at differently or negatively. 

AND ALSO

THIS IS NOT AT ALL IN MY HEAD.
People do read my stuff and judge me. 
Or they roll their eyes at how long my emails are...and judge me.
Or they hear my story about how I broke down over something silly like an email, and judge me.
Or they hear me share my victory of how I feel whole and confident, and they criticize me for something else, or envy me, or claim I'm lying. 
Not to mention, the people that are close to me have their own interpretation given our relationship, and should I mention how that relationship has, or had, affected me, it may be misunderstood. 

Uuuuuuf. (Actually the sound that came out of my mouth was more like a BARF sound...but I didn't know how to write that....LOL.)


I currently share a lot of myself, pretty openly.
I post on instagram about how sad I am.
I share nude photos of myself.
I offer insights that I've learned through my personal life, to a wide audience.
And yet, I still feel like I'm performing. 
I still feel like I'm hiding the parts of me that I think make me lesser. 
And while I know that's for me to slowly unravel within myself, I also know that EVERYONE IS DOING THIS ALL THE TIME. 

And so, I want to create an opportunity, to NOT have to do that.
Because honestly - I DON'T WANT TO ANYMORE. 

I don't want to have to lie....not even a little bit. And my hope is that you want some honesty too. 

SOOOOOOOOO......

I'M LAUNCHING

A PATREON!!!!!!!


EEEE!!!!! 
I 
AM
SO
EXCITED.

Like for real. I've been jumping up and down all day, and for about a week. I've left my page up on my computer so every time I open my computer I can get excited about it. 

If you don't know, a Patreon is an exclusive online community, where artists/creatives can share their work to an audience that subscribes to a membership.

To me, this is an opportunity to create a container for deep sharing. A little bit of safety. The content that I will put out on this page will be exclusive to Patrons, meaning everyone that is there has explicitly chosen to be there. Meaning, there's a little more room to work together, and to share together. 

In addition, it's a really sweet way to get some financial support from my audience, so that I can continue to create, as I have some big things cooking - just give me some time. (I appreciate you.)

On this page I will be sharing stories, poems, maybe videos that are deeply REAL to me.
Personal stories and anecdotes.
Breakdowns...that had no breakthroughs.
Triggers and trauma of my own that are not "healed", and still affect me all the time.
More into my personal relationships, sex, and relation with men in general.
How my learnings teach me about society, and visa versa.
How society is affecting us, whether we realize it or not, and what that ACTUALLY looks like and feels like.
Real emotion. Full stop.
And of course, analysis of how to navigate through it all, and how we can do that together.

If you join for the cheapest option, you get access to ALL OF THIS. There will be at least a handful of new posts each month for you to read, enjoy, relate to, laugh at, cry with, etc. 

In addition, there is an option to pay a little more, and receive recorded audio PRACTICES that you can do on your own (like an at-home meditation for you, like the ones I do with my 1-on-1 clients). 

In addition, there's another option to pay a little bit more, and receive monthly check-in calls with me. 20 minutes of coaching, where you can get support on navigating through what you're working on. (This is a great opportunity to get a TASTE of coaching, without having to dive in to the whole process!)

I really hope you'll join me. 
I really hope you'll experience realness with me in a new way.
I really hope you'll let yourself open to a deeper, more connected, more REAL you...and me. ;)

Check it out. 

Love you dearly,

Jessie