Membership is coming to a close.

March will be the last month of my membership (for now).

For the last few months, I’ve known something was off, but I couldn’t quite pinpoint it.

So I’d switch around a few things, and try again.

And the truth is,
It was always absolutely lovely.
I truly enjoyed every single class I taught/created/did with my members.
It was such a beautiful experience of getting to be really present in my body, and hold space for others’ experiences, in a way that’s not always accessible in a regular yoga class, or in other spaces.

But still
Something was off.

This week,
I had a reckoning with it.

For the last 10 years, my focus, my job, my identity has been about physical movement.

I’ve learned it.
I’ve taught it.
I’ve taught you how to teach it.
I’ve learned it some more.

But each year, I peeled back another layer, and have been getting closer and closer to something different.

Something far less physical,
And far more internal.

Something deeper,
And bigger.

Something that’s always in the background of the movement,
But is often ignored, or denied.

It’s the feeling.
The body’s true voices.
The subtle nudges from within.

And while this membership spoke to those pieces,
Ultimately,
I found in myself that a part of me was hiding in this membership.
Hiding from the work I’m truly called to do,
By doing what I’ve always done.
By doing what people know/expect of me.
By doing what I’m good at.
By doing what I think people want from me.
By doing what I think is valuable to others,
Instead of doing the thing inside of me that calls out.
The thing inside of me that is meant to come out of me in this lifetime.
Instead of doing IT.
The IT that is underneath the movement anyway.

As this realization started to rumble inside of me...
I avoided it for two days.
How could I leave the thing that I’m good at? How could I not provide the thing that people always ask me for? How could I leave the thing that just seems to "make sense”?

But it finally broke through.
And I’m ready to stop deviating from the truth to stay safe.
I’m ready to stop doing what I THINK I’m supposed to be doing,
To do what I KNOW will come through me regardless.

No more distracting.
Big magic is here. ✨